I am feeling grateful for my partner today. So very grateful. So loving. So supportive. So funny. So talented. You are exactly what I asked for. It has been so wonderful spending the last couple of days with you. I am delighted with you.
My intentions are just to be today.
Affirmations: I get exactly what I want. Always.
Today I am grateful for our new sign !!!!! and all the hard work Jennifer Lachtara and Jason Lachtara put in on it, Barry's work picking up, Kristen Marcet doing a one on one for CPR certification with me, having the Marcet family come into my life, the fun people at Posh, Christina joining me for a pedicure and a bite, her caring about my well-being, Yoga Day!!!!, no meltdowns this week, sleeping better, lots of love and affection coming my way.
Today I intend to be present, enjoy the Saturday yogis, give Becky a good yoga routine, enjoy yoga day, enjoy Barb's birthday dinner.
Affirmations: Nothing is fixed. Everything evolves. I can make changes with each small choice I make. I eat well and light. I purify my body with breath, food, exercise. My body releases its excess. I eat only what I need to maintain a thin, light body.
Feeling fattish. This happens to me when life gets moving too fast. Then I don't eat at the proper times. I eat fast. I eat too much. I eat emotionally. I exercise too little. Every week I feel like there is too much I have to do in just the basic requirements. This week I forgot about Yoga Day for a minute and scheduled CPR recertification for the same day. Thanks to the incredible flexibility of Kristen Marcet, I was able at the last minute to move the CPR class to Friday. So CPR plus Yoga Day plus a 3.5 hour meeting at work and you have a week busting at the seams. With all this I was ripe for a melt-down.
But. I. Did. Not. Have. One.
This is what is showing me that what I am doing Ayurvedically is helping me. I am able to cope just a little bit better. This week I did a shade better eating the right foods (and not eating the wrong ones) to balance Pitta. I made time for Girl's night. I got together with Christina Package to get our nails done and have a good heart to heart. When I was depleted I went to bed instead of allowing my weary mind to stir up trouble. I got my Acu Yoga book from Amazon today with points for hot flashes. I am feeling inspired to put together a workshop for menopause.
I still have a full day ahead and know I need to find the time to move my body vigorously today and several times a week. This will also help my appetite, eating, emotions… and the feeling of fattishness. Let's see how I can fold that in… here I go….
I know I have been missing in action for a few days. As a Pitta in recovery I am trying not to be too anal about things. I am only one person with a lot on her plate. In any given free moment I must choose the most important task to prioritize out of many. The things I prioritized since I last posted are
- Visiting with an old friend I have not seen in almost a year (Thank you Pamela Kokott!).
- Spending quality time with my beloved and reconnecting after a couple of pretty demanding weeks.
- Work have to's.
I have been trying to stick to my Pitta-reducing food choices. Today I had cottage cheese with pineapple for breakfast, raspberries and nuts for snacks (the nuts had some no no's in there, like walnuts), greens and rice for lunch, blueberries and graham crackers for another snack. By 7:45 I was starving with feelings of low blood sugar. I think I need more protein throughout the day… and perhaps more veggies and less fruit. Since eggs are of my list, I wonder what I can replace them with…. time to consult Barry.
I also started my Pitta reducing herbs for hot flashes today. The jury is still out on those, but I will let you know.
Besides being bone tired, I have nothing new to report. I am moseying along, making better choices all the time. This includes food and other choices as well. I am making choices that allow me not to be rushed. This is less stressful and less Pitta-making even though that means I am not getting everything into my day I would like to.
Soon when I am not so bone tired, I will post the Ayurvedic questionnaire so you can fill it out. I will also post the food lists. Barry Cooper is available for consultations if you would like one. He lives this stuff. I should know. And now I am. Here I go….
It has been an emotional week kind of. My low back has been in constant pain for about a week. This brings me close to tears at times. Back bends and stretching the outer hips helps. Stretching the hamstrings hurts. I have an appointment with Dr. Bock DC today too. I started taking 4 capsules of tumeric powder last night and this also seems to have helped. Time to focus on Stacy's health now. Throughout this day I will do back bends, outer hip stretches, and quad and hip flexor stretches. I predict this will heal me. The gift is that it reminds me of what people in chronic pain are dealing with. I feel it has made me slower, more emotional, and more demanding of my boyfriend. So while I thank the pain for being there for a time, it is time for it to go. It is time for me to feel strong again. I claim groundedness, health, security. I claim flow and creativity. I claim my inner power. I love from a grounded heart. I speak my truth from a grounded and loving place. My perceptions are clear and accurate. I feel a part of the Whole. I am whole.
Today I am grateful for feeling a bit better in the back, Christine who has been such a sweet friend, Christina's apartment, which may soon be our apartment, my chiropractic appointment, my loving boyfriend, getting away to see family this weekend, time to breathe and write my course next week, the great turn-out for the class last night, my session with S, getting a grip on my emotions, realizing I can no longer communicate with D as it is very toxic and unhealthy for me, my great patients and boss.
Today I intend to let go of the shame I feel at allowing myself to be emotionally manipulated by D, release the residue of the disturbing conversation we had, release B from my agendas and allow him the freedom to do what he must, love more purely and less selfishly, be strong in myself, be strong period, develop a strong and healthy back, learn what I should from my back pain and move on, be kind, compassionate, effective, efficient today at work, give C my best, give J my best, send B strength, energy, and love to get through this tough transition, surround myself with a protective white light that protects my energy from those who seek to manipulate me.
I am strong and resilient.
I am healthy.
My back is strong.
I align myself with good, positive, healthy people to be around.
I am whole in and of myself.
I can take care of myself physically and emotionally.
I free others from my agendas.
Today I am grateful that Isaac is shifting west, for my chiropractic appointment this morning, getting to teach my Saturday yogis, things moving forward in good orderly direction with the studio and my personal life, a great night out with everyone last night, being less reactive to others' reactivity than I used to be, eating better and lighter, getting my favorite high heeled sandals dropped off at the show repair place, the impromptu massage from Greg H., Stephanie getting shipped out finally, my sister's excitement.
Today I intend to be present and effective for students, be pain free, sell the elliptical, figure out the pedicure situation, have a safe drive to Orlando.
I am safe.
I am loved.
All is as it should be.
I courageously move forward toward an exuberant life.
Today I am grateful for a laid back boss on my day job, realizing that I truly am so blessed to have love in my life even with all the potentially scary parts, having time tonight to clean out the fridge, coming home to a clean house, being told by several people that I am glowing, feeling happy, a reasonable work week.
Tonight I intend to sleep well and deep, enjoy talking to Barry before sleep, look at rental listings on Craig's list, reach out to Oscar about his rental, clean out the fridge, let go of things easily.
Life is sweet.
I enjoy every part of the upcoming transition in my life, even the busy stressful parts.
Today I am grateful for an amazing weekend, sleeping through the night, having the establishment license application in my hands, the support of friends, this being the last day of antibiotics, having a vision of the future that looks bright – both personally and professionally, love.
Today I intend to call the insurance company, be effective and efficient at work, give Barry the Droid charger, get enough sleep for tomorrow.
All is as it should be.
The "perfect" place is in the process of being emptied for me to move into.
The issues with the animals and house is already in process of being resolved.
People are already in the process of planning to come back to class.
The studio is in a state of thriving.
All things work together for good.
Today I am grateful for being full-time in one location effective today, sleeping through the night, having a manageable caseload at my day job, A and S as clients, D wanting to continue yoga therapy, having a reasonable supervisor, that it is already Wednesday, feeling motivated to begin to get rid of some stuff, feeling loved and appreciated, the puppy finding a home.
Today I intend to stay on top of paperwork, be focused and efficient, be present, be a healer, get enough sleep, make the right decision regarding BP.
My life strikes the perfect balance of financial security and enough time to nurture all parts of my being.
L finds just the right opportunity for her next job.
E also finds just the right opportunity for her next job.
Barry attracts just the right opportunities for him to transition to St Pete and meet his financial responsibilities.
I experience having more than enough time, money, friends, love, quality time with those I love.
Ok it is Thursday again and I am dragging. I met friends out last night to celebrate my friend Christina's 30 days of no smoking. I talked to my sweet man until midnight. This was after my 14-hour work day. You are probably thinking, "Well, what did you expect?" You have a point, but I stubbornly think that my whole like cannot be about "working, sleeping, eating." I must keep time for friends, companionship, and love interests. Those are the things that make life sweet after all. So if you are willing, please send energy and focus today. Friday is coming, and I am ready.
Today I am grateful for my sister, who talked to me even though she was enjoying a rare moment of alone time, Lisa Thornsberry's new job opportunity, the banter of friends, how much I like my supervisor and coworker, working in a friendly atmosphere, my new client at the studio, the opportunity to go running on Friday and Saturday, the possibility of seeing B this weekend, fun clients tonight, the opportunity to get to bed early-ish tonight.
Today I intend to WAKE UP fully, drink lots of water, get Mrs. C's paperwork caught up so I can forget about it, see all my patients, have more energy and focus than I should.
All things work together for the highest good of all concerned.
I enjoy the strength and power of two like-minded people coming together.
I trust that all I desire will come together in perfect timing.
I have more than enough time to do all that needs to be done.
I have more than enough energy and focus to move through the day and evening effectively.